Animals in God's will

Countdown to reunion: 21 days till my hun comes home!!!!!!

Congrats to Carol and Will on their engagement! :) Will next year be a crazy wedding summer? :)

I have a couple animal observations to share with you today. The first came during my visit with my Japanese Pastor and his wife. They are AMAZING people and I was so blessed during our meal together, but the most surprising part came right before the meal when they fed their dog, Naru. Naru waits patiently as his dad puts his food in the dog dish, and he waits while his dad says grace! Yes, the Pastor prays with Naru before Naru eats, and Naru doesn't make a move until after the "Amen". I know, I know, Naru probably has no idea what the Pastor is saying, but it was one of the most touching animal moments I've seen. A dog saying grace before dinner.

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My cat came to join me during my quiet time today, and it led me to think about how animals are so much in God's will. They do exactly what they were designed to do! He must have such joy in His creation as they purr, leap, snuggle, shed, eat, sleep, pounce, sleep some more... That I would have such obedience to God's will in my life!

Wisdom of the ages

When Kevin and I started our relationship, we decided to seek out another more experienced couple to mentor us. I am SO thankful that we have their input into our lives!!! It is so challenging to have their wise advice, to ask them questions, and to have them ask US the tough questions.

Could we survive without the accountability? Maybe.

Would it be a good idea? Nope.

Because of our pride, it's easy to think we've got it figured out, or that we will figure it out on our own. I am so thankful that God has humbled us to ask for accountability! Even as we talked about getting engaged, we discussed it with our mentor couple who told us about their engagement and convictions leading to their decision. I think that God definitely uses other people to speak to us, and I know He is using this couple to speak truth into our relationship, to keep us grounded in His Word, His Truth, His Love.

Thanks for mentors who take the time to speak into my life!

P.S. Another reason why accountability in any area is good was expressed well by my friend Darren (I'm paraphrasing). He said, "I'm not going to be stupid enough to give myself the benefit of the doubt." It's true. Giving myself the benefit of the doubt has led to many a stupid decision on my part, and seeking accountability from other people you respect (who will love you enough to challenge you, even at the risk of you throwing things at them) lessens the probability of a stupid decision occurring. And believe me, any decrease of stupidity is a good decrease! ;)

S-car-goooo!

I had a yummy yummy dinner this past Thursday night at Boho in the T.Dot (for Summerlicious). The particularly tasty treat was the appetizer. Escargots in a phyllo pastry cup. YUMM! My first s-car-go experience, and it was fantastic. I got to share it with another particularly tasty treat, Nancy, AHAHAHAHAH. But seriously, try escargots. They are DELISH!

In more news, our '88 Honda is dying awwwww, so we're looking at getting a Honda Fit to replace it. Honda Fits are so cute! And of course, the most important question is, "What colours do they come in?" Ahahahaha. Not sure when we'll actually go and buy it, but I'm excited for all the foldy-chair-ness!

And right now, we're in the middle of a crazy storm. I just looked out the window, and it is amazing to see the wind whipping these trees. It was such a great reminder of God's power. And to think that He can calm the storm, just as easily as He can start it. Wow. Thunderstorms for God's glory. Wow.

Enouraging quote

As we were debriefing about the year overseas, someone gave me this quote and I really enjoyed it.

"If God calls you to be a missionary, don't stoop to be a king." - C.T. Studd

Space cadet

According to my sister, my behaviour lately has been "space cadet-y". I totally agree. I'm SO out of it. I could blame it on jet lag (I'm not feeling QUITE as awake as I should), but it's also because I completely forget so many things about Canadian culture and find myself just observing and spacing out!

In Re-Entry by Peter Jordan, he says,

What are some of the signs of reverse culture shock? One is feeling "out of place," as though you are a spectator watching from afar. You don't really fit in with what is going on around you. While everyone else seems to be sure of their social position, you seem to hang out at the edges, wanting to paricipate fully, but not being quite able to.

Exactly. I'm SO out of it. I feel like the world runs on around me, but I'm not fully part of it yet. I think I'm going to need to keep adjusting. Gah!

The workout today helped! It is SO MUCH EASIER TO RUN HERE! I think my lungs are super-efficient with ALL the oxygen, because they were so deprived before. I haven't run in almost a year, but today was okay! And then I watched Superman Returns. Suprisingly good! It was good to hang out with my sister and her boyfriend.

Tomorrow, the cleaning, purging, throwing away continues, and it's craft time to assemble gifts!

War veterans...

I met with a dear friend of mine, my first discipler, in B.C. and she spewed so much wisdom as I told her about readjusting to the Canadian culture. There was one thing she said that stood out to me especially, and that was that returning missionaries are like war veterans. When war veterans come home, they realize so much has changed in their home culture and they often have trouble readjusting, finding new jobs, and re-acquainting themselves with old friends. She said returning from the missions field is similar, because we've been fighting a spiritual battle. War veterans have organizations that help them re-adjust to the culture, and it's important for us to find a support network, too.

So how do I feel? In some ways, it's back to normal. Slowly, things are starting to come back...how to do a load of laundry, doing dishes in 2 HUGE sinks (bye-bye small Asia sink!), driving in Toronto, petting my cat.

I think the problem will be taking time to spend with God. Already, I'm trying to adjust by to-do-ing everything, putting tasks on a list that I'll check off once I've finished them (it's control-freak syndrome!). One thing that's not on my task list? Re-adjusting to culture. Is it a mistake to assume that that will happen naturally? Probably.

If you talk to me this week, can you ask me if I've taken time off to start processing this past year? Ask me if I've spent some good time with my Father. Thanks for all your support, friends! :)

"Home"?

I was born in Canada and raised in Canada for 23 years. Shouldn't I know what it's all about??

Apparently not. I'm experiencing culture shock to the max. Flushing toilet paper?? I can do that?? Grass! There are lawns! Clean air...skies that are grey because they're cloudy, not because they're smoggy! People drive normally! There are lanes and people obey the laws! And...the Blue Jays are actually doing well! I know! Gasp!

And so the adjustment continues.

P.S. Drove for the first time in 11 months today! After not buckling a single seatbelt in 11 months (including once in Vancouver, oops), I got into the car and my arm reached over to buckle it in. Automatic! Good thing some things don't change.

Multiplying WHAT?

I met with one of the girls I’ve discipled over the year for the last time today. It was bittersweet. There was a hilarious moment, however, when she talked about my influence on her. She talked about how I had influenced her in many ways, and how her friends said that she was becoming more like me in every way….especially with messy hair!!!! Gah! I looked at her and smoothed my (messy) hair and laughed while gasping about what a horrendous thing that was to multiply. Ahahahahaha.

Note to self: comb hair once in a while.

Quotes from the weekend

"Eating donkey must be good for your skin. You don't see any donkeys with bad skin, do you?" K-man

"Sharing the gospel was my hobby, but now it's my major." -Fireseed


And for the cheesiness factor:
In response to the question posed by Tim-tam ("If you had to torture a farm animal for information, which farm animal would you choose?")

"A pig, because it would squeal."
"A cow, because you could milk it for information."
Hmmm...and the others seem to have slipped my mind. Believe me when I say it was 5 minutes of pure cheese while we spewed these babies out.

This is my blog post... This is my blog post

So D.Lu bought a Mika Nakashima CD, and I decided I really liked her.

And then I decided to check out some of her music videos on You Tube. Bad idea.

Check out Mika Nakashima's home video. It is ridiculously ridiculous.

Basically, she's showing us around her old house...
"This is the toilet....................this is the toilet. Tooooooilet!"
"This is the entryway..................this is the entryway"

Only she might as well be saying, "This is my big head in the wayof everything"!!!!!!!!!!! It's so ridiculous! It's funny that it's a video about her house, but you can't really see her house.

My keen observations:
Mika is SCARY without make-up.
Why does she repeat everything TWICE?
She has interesting taste in lamps. It's a seashell lamp.
Her BOSS drives her around?!?!?!
Her friend Emi does look like her twin.
I wish she wouldn't just talk in monotone. She can sing...but the speaking....Mika has no personality. Sigh. But she has such a great voice!

Serves me right for checking out ridiculous J-pop home videos. Noooo more.

But I love Mika's rendition of Amazing Grace!

Mini Mono?

I have had chronic fatigue for the last 2 weeks. What in the world is wrong with me? I go to bed and get at least 7 hours of sleep (usually closer to 8hrs), and I wake up tired. I haven't felt completely clear-headed in a while. WHAT is going ON?!?!

(Gasp, the thought just occurred to me that I might just have symptoms of OLD AGE!) Ahahaha. But honestly, I wish I could figure it out. Maybe it's the changing weather? The rain here has been ridiculous lately. The streets were flooded outside our apartment, and on the other side by the door, we couldn't even get out because the sewers decided they would stay clogged during the biggest rainfall here this year! Some of the sewage actually started to seep up slightly! Gah! The rain has also rusted my bike horrendously, but it still works, and I think there's less chance of it getting stolen now. :)

Tomorrow's my rest day, so I'm going to meet my favourite friend with the initials MO! I know, what a coincidence, the SAME initials?! She's so great! We're going shopping, and I'll hopfully buy some fabric to get a couple of shirts copied. They are AMAZING at copying shirts here.

I'll be going to the fabric market to buy the fabric...It's funny because you buy everything here at a market. The antique market. The plant market. The fabric market. Jewellery street. There's no store that carries it all. Ah, how I miss Wal-mart! Actually, we have a Wal-mart here but it's more like a grocery store.

Less than one month till I hit the ground in Canada.

GAH!

(We just discussed today how we'll probably spend the first couple of minutes at Vancouver airport gaping open-mouthed at the multicultural-ness of Canada! "Wow, foreigners!")

Pondering vocation as a service to Christ - John Piper

Things come together in beneficial ways.

I've been reading through John Piper's Taste and See.
I've also been praying about what in the WORLD I'm doing next year.

Then, these two activities intersected in Piper's book. He says,

"I don't want my people to simply drift into a job or coast along in it with little sense of calling or significance for the supremacy of God in what they do."

I think this is what I've been struggling with. It's hard for me to think of a job I can do for next year that I think has significance, that allows God to be supreme in my life. I know I want to do all I can to further God's kingdom, and it's hard for me to think that something like supply teaching is truly strategic in doing that. It's hard for me to avoid the mentality that next year is a limbo year, before I decide what to REALLY do with my life. I know I need to live in the present and go hard in the present...but what does that mean about the job I should apply for for next year?!

So while I ponder what God really wants me to do next year, I have started applying to the Ontario College of Teachers to start the supply-teaching application process. I feel like I haven't submitted this decision enough to Him, so I'm going to keep praying for His will. This decision makes sense...but sometimes He asks us to do things that don't make sense. I'm praying for confirmation of what His will is. All I can say for sure right now is, thank goodness He will never leave nor forsake us!

Meanwhile, Piper gives good guidance to finding a job. Piper asks these questions (and refers to the ultimate authority, the Bible!):

1) Can I earnestly do all the parts of this job "to the glory of God," that is, in a way that highlights his superior value over all other things? (1 Corinthians 10:31)
2) Is taking this job part of a strategy to grow in personal holiness? (1 Thessalonians 4:3)
3) Will this job help or hinder my progress in esteeming the value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord? (Philippians 3:8)
4) Will this job result in inappropriate pressures to think or feel or act against my King, Jesus? (1 Corinthians 7:23)
5) Will this job help establish an overall life pattern that will yield a significant involvement in fulfilling God's great purpose of exalting Christ among all the unreached peoples of the world? (Matthew 28:18-20)
6) Will this job be worthy of my best energies? (Ecclesiastes 9:10)
7) Will the activities and environment of this job tend to shape me, or will I be able to shape it for the Christ-magnifying purposes of God? (Romans 12:2)
8) Will this job provide an occasion for me to be radically Christian so as to let my light shine for my Father's sake, or will my participation in the vision of the firm tend to snuff out my wick? (Matthew 5:16)
9) Does the aim of this job cohere with a growing intensity in my life to be radically, publicly, fruitfully devoted to Christ at any cost? (Mark 8:34)
10) Will the job feel like a good investment of my life when this vapour's breath of preparation for eternity is over? (James 4:14)
11) Does this job fit with why I believe I was create and purchased by Christ? (1 Corinthians 6:20)
12) Does this job fit together with the ultimate truth that all things exist for Christ? (Colossians 1:16)

High standards, and so they should be.

Here's back to praying and waiting on Him.

You tube afternoon

So ever since discovering You Tube, I have been watching a ridiculous number of music videos. But not even whole ones. Why? Because I find J-pop ones booooooooooring! Ayumi, Namie and Utada...they can sing (or well, Namie and Utada can), but their videos are soooooooo boring. And D.Lu, you're right, Namie kinda slithers!

Sigh, even Lindsay Lohan has more exciting videos than these j-pop sisters. But maybe it's because there are still undiscovered AMAZING j-pop videos out there!

Thus, the You-Tube-ing continues!

A new take on empowering women...

"Recently I’ve been contemplating what would happen if the women of America united behind a few basic family principles. We shouldn’t underestimate the power of a woman, and especially the power of women united. I challenge the women of America to lock arms, and united, say to men:
“No marriage, no sex.” Imagine the overnight cultural change if every women said, “I will not be intimate with any man unless and until he makes a legal, binding, lifelong commitment to me.” In other words, “Unless you marry me, you won’t sleep with me.” What would happen if women united and refused to have sex with men who had run around in their teen years or had left their first wives? Women, you have the power to civilize men."

Whoa. Strong words, but it makes you think about God's plan. No sex without marriage and there wouldn't be rampant STDs, as many abortions, infidelity...wow. Women Unite!

You are Everything...

It's funny how so many love songs have been written! I remember in my boy-crazy high school days how I would listen to Boyz II Men or some other RnB band crooning about love, attraction, being enamored, mutual love, unrequited love...love love love. I'd sit there listening to the songs and admittedly, dreaming about a future boy in my life. How much energy and time were consumed with listening to these songs!

As I sit listening to another love song, I realize how much these lyrics still capture my feelings. But this time, it's not some human I think about...it's something much bigger, much better...Someone majestic.

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

-Lifehouse

Jesus said, "When he looks at me, he sees the one who sent me. I have come into the world as a light, so that no one who believes in me should stay in darkness." - John 12:45, 46

How big is He?

"But if you believe in a small God who is no bigger than you are, you are not going to place much faith in Him. Nor will you be motivated to love, trust, and obey Him." - Bill Bright, The Coming Revival

Do I live as if I believe in God? Do I live as if I believe He is the Creator of the Universe, all-knowing, all-powerful and mighty? Do I believe in a God who is infinitely greater than me?

If I was truly living as a child of the living God, shouldn't that be reflected in my life?

Forgive me for lacking passion for You, for You are the only One who truly deserves all my heart, soul, mind and strength.

By the word of the LORD were the heavens made,

their starry host by the breath of his mouth.

He gathers the waters of the sea into jars;

he puts the deep into storehouses.

Let all the earth fear the LORD;

let all the people of the world rever him.

For he spoke, and it came to be;

he commanded, and it stood firm.

The LORD foils the plans of the nations;

he thwarts the purposes of the peoples.

But the plans of the LORD stand firm forever,

the purposes of his heart through all generations.

Psalm 33:6-11

Brain fart

Yesterday in the taxi, I turned to Darren and said, "Am I 25 yrs old?"

I was serious, I couldn't remember, but my thought was that if I was 25, that I needed to freak out.

Then Darren told me I'm not. Safe for another 8 months!

Note to self: Remember own age.

Celebrate hope

Sing a song of celebration
Lift up a shout of praise
For the Bridegroom will come
The glorious One

And oh, we will look on His face
We’ll go to a much better place
Dance with all your might
Lift up your hands and clap for joy
The time’s drawing near
When He will appear

And oh, we will stand by His side
A strong, pure, spotless bride
We will dance on the streets that are golden
The glorious bride and the great Son of man
From every tongue and tribe and nation
Will join in the song of the Lamb

Sing aloud for the time of rejoicing is near
The risen King, our groom, is soon to appear
The wedding feast to come is now near at hand
Lift up your voice, proclaim the coming Lamb

- David Ruis

I'm only slightly nerdy!

That's right. Only "lightly nerdy".

Apparently, I'm "Somewhat nerdy. I mean face it, you are nerdier than about half the test takers."

But nerdiness does not necessarily mean smart. Sigh.

TWO MONTHS?!?!?

A shocker...there are 9 weeks before I come back! NINE WEEKS!!! That's only a little over TWO MONTHS! WHERE did all this time go?!

In some ways, it'll be nice to get back to fresh air and clean laundry, but it will be so sad to leave my friends here. These past few weeks, I've had so many conversations with students about spiritual things, shared the gospel with many of them, heard stories of God completely changing people's lives, and seen God's Spirit really working in the hearts and minds of these students. It has been amazing to witness firsthand what He is doing in the world!

These next 2 months will be a challenge in really living in the present, but preparing to go back.

Now listen, you who say, "Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money." Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that." - James 4:13-15

As a sidenote, I've realized that I've started a lot of posts and never finished them. In my stockpile? The lastest one was about the resurrection of Jesus Christ and why the resurrection is the most logical explanation. It's so fun to talk about, but too long to type, so alac and alas, maybe next Easter.

As another sidenote, I love talking with all you ppl on your Sunday nights, my Monday mornings! :) Go hard with the QTs, Rach and Amanda!