Disappointment with God

This huge lawsuit situation ended last month in tears and a huge letdown. I had been praying for so long that I wouldn't have to pay the $1400 this woman was unfairly suing me for (I didn't cause her injuries!), but the way the court system works over here is quite different from in Canada. The police have more authority than the courts, so if the police have submitted something as evidence, the judge accepts it (even if it's random pictures of scratches on a bike, my bike, that could have been from ANYTHING!!!!!!). It was amazing to have such peace during the trial and to know that the judge could probably tell who was telling the truth (telling lies will trap you in those lies), but in the end, I still had to pay.

So I ask, where in the world was God in all this? He's a fair God, perfectly just....so WHERE was the justice?? This past month, I've been trying to process this. I know that God is just, and that at the end of it all, everything works out fairly. But I want life to be fair RIGHT NOW. What it comes down to is that I felt hurt by God because I felt He was silent. I felt like He didn't do a thing, didn't lift a finger to help a girl out, to tip the scales in favour of TRUTH.

But was He really silent? Philip Yancey asks the question in his book, Disappointment with God. "Is God silent? I answer that question with another question: Is the church silent?" He asks that question because God now chooses to use fallible Christians, human beings, to do His will on earth. So if God decided to speak out in my situation, to say a little something, He would use the church, other Christians.

Is God silent?

Nope. No siree. Nooooo way. Over the months of worrying over the outcome of this situation, I have never ever ever felt so supported and loved by my church and friends. They were not silent. God was not silent.

And the most humbling thing of all, after days of crying out to God in tears, asking why he let this happen, He answered in a big way. He worked in the hearts of men, in the hearts of the people at my organization, to pay my legal bill. I didn't have to pay a cent of the lawsuit. He spoke loud and clear through the people in His church. Thank you all.

Nothing like a little humble pie to make you feel like a whiney child.

So is God silent?

No. Because the church was not.

"Instead, speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is, Christ. From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work." - Ephesians 4:15, 16